JOURNAL ENTRY :)

In one week's time, I'm gonna dye my hair again, this time, a different colour same type REVLON. I'm gonna shave and thread and trim my eyebrows again every month without fail because she was such a good friend. I have found wonderful friends just so recently for the past few months.

I hope to be rewarded with a getaway at a resort and spa and my father pick up the call and answer the phone and is agreeable to undertake. I like the Ri-Yaz Heritage Marina and Spa in Pulau Duyong, Kuala Trengganu and I also like the second choice, the lush Belum Rainforest Resort in Kampung Lenggong, Gerik in Perak although I prefer the first more. I might have to choose if they give the exotic CyberView Resort and Spa in CyberJaya.

Look up for Red FM Radio Renovation on your website and win a stay at any of these amazing resorts for your thoughts. Keep on listening to the difference you make as it's the radio station that's built for you and by you.

I am going on a routine jog and walk at 6 pm everyday of my life with my neighbourhood friend. She is a good sister. My parents go out for walks too and the neighbourhood is full of exercising people of all walks of life. I enjoyed it as I get to meet friends. This is the only time I get to meet and see people and talk.

The only thing that makes me sulky is to see so many ah longs pinning up posters on the trees to looks for victims of money lending. I prayed to God that nobody will be cheated of their bowl of rice at home. I am so angry and many people are aware of this pranks and warned others not to bring out their handphones and get preyed into slavery...

I have cancelled my credit facility and concentrate more on cash transactions. My heart is always right. They are "snakes" inside the banks where money is found. INTEREST rates are VERY HIGH. Please people be advised and self-equipped. To the women of Malaysia , take heed and I love you all...

Happy Happy Happy HOURS!!!!!

I praise the Lord for my new-found freedom. The Lord Almighty has his ways of moulding up our lives. I was such a wreck not to know that God has been guiding me all along, nurturing me and leading the way, my path and my destiny.

I wanted to thank my Mom for her support. I wanted to say thank you to my Dad for settling my debt on my credit facilities and I wanted to praise my life-partner for memories of sheer pleasure. I wanted to thank the Lord for MOTHERHOOD. Without motherhood, I would never cherished the beauty of childbirth. As Steven Tyler sang in his song, "IT FEELS SO GOOD!".

Destiny's Child was to survive an attack and overcome your greatest fears - Survival of the FITTEST!!!

Happy Father's Day on June 19th and Happy School Holiday!


Love as always,
Wan-Ling / Elaine.

Journal Entry.

It's been one year and one month since I left home and came back with my family. Last two weeks ago I went back to my old home to collect the rest of my clothes and undergarment, before they were being trashed out. I spent a lot of my money on clothes so my clothes were of great value to me and so were my undergarments. My Mom was with me and we bought ORANGES worth of ten dollars to give as an offering. I saw my two boys came home from school and gave them both a hug. My eldest son says he loves the food there and his hands are clean. My younger son says he's still shy in morning school but he's doing real fine.

I also managed to visit my BEST FRIEND before I left for home. My mom had to wait outside the gate for one hour because my mother-in-law went "SHOPPING" with her daughter. After I visited my BEST FRIEND, I managed to walk back to where my Mom was waiting outside the gate and we went for some HIGH TEA. I paid coffee for my Mom and me.

When we reached my old house a second time, my in-laws were already back. We talked rubbish, nonsense and bitter accusations. Then my two sons came home and I went to pack my clothes to be taken away. I asked for a plastic bag and put a whole lot of my precious belongings to take home. After saying GOODBYE to my two sons, Mom and I left for home. I might just come back for more TRASH but I am glad that my stuff mostly clothes had not been thrown away. They mean a lot to me these days....

So I visited my two sons and I said GOODBYE  I think the third time. HOME SWEET HOME.

SUPERMOON~There's a big moon on the rise,Earth's satellite to appear larger and brighter on Saturday March 19th.

George Town : This Saturday,March 19th, the moon will swing around Earth more closely than it has in the past 18 years,lighting up the night sky from just 356,577 km away.The full moon will appear bigger and brighter - but there is "no scientific ground" for panic. Universiti Sains Malaysia's (USM) Astronomy Club academic adviser Assoc Prof Dr Chong Hon Yew said the moon would look larger than normal as it will be closer to the Earth.

"Scientifically, there is no such thing as a "Super Moon" but on March 19, you will see a bigger FULL MOON because it's a LUNAR PERIGEE (when the moon's orbit is closest to the earth)."Saturn will also be visible to the naked eye on that night. What is rare is that there will also be a PLANETARY ALIGNMENT on that day," he said yesterday.Dr Chong said a planetary alignment did not mean that all the planets were in a straight line."Mercury,Venus, Mars,Jupiter,Uranus and Neptune will be very close to the sun within a 50degrees angle and this qualifies as a planetary alignment - it's impossible for all the planets to be in a straight line."

He,however,said the planetary alignment would not be visible because it would be in the DAYTIME SKY.A recent online article had claimed that "chaos would ensue" with huge storms, earthquakes,volcanoes and other natural disasters expected to WREAK HAVOC on Earth. Dr Chong says the planets' gravity effect on Earth was "negligible" compared to the effect of the moon and sun's gravity. Geocosmic Centre for Yi Jing Metascience Reserch Malaysia consultant and I-Ching (the Book of Change) expert Dr Chuah Chong Cheng said that even if something BAD were to happen on SATURDAY,it would be RIDICULOUS to blame it on the moon.

"Saturday is the 15th day of the second month of the Chinese lunar calendar and on March 15, or the Ides of March, Julius Caesar was murdered in 44 B.C.,"said Dr Chuah.

What is a HORMONE?

A hormone is a chemical substance produced in the body that controls and regulates the activity of certain cells or organs. Many hormones are secreted by specialized glands such as the thyroid gland. Hormones are essential for every activity of daily living, including the processes of digestion, metabolism, growth, reproduction, and mood control. Many hormones,such as the neurotransmitters are active in more than one physical process. Examples of hormones include aldosterone, antidiuretic hormone (ADH), cortisol, erythropoietin, estrogen, human chorionic gonadotropin (hCG), parathormone, progesterone and testoterone.

A hormone originally denoted a chemical made by a gland for export to another part of the body. Now a hormone is more broadly any chemical, irrespective of whether it is produced by a special gland or not, for export or domestic use, that "controls and regulates the activity of certain cells or organs". The word "hormao" which means "I set the motion" or "I stir up" was used in ancient Greece to covey the "vital principal" of "getting the juices flowing". The word "hormone" was resurrected in 1902 ( not 1906, as the Oxford English Dictionary states ) by the English physiologists Wm. M. Bayliss and Ernest H. Starling who that year reported their discovery of a substance made by glands in the small intestine that stimulated pancreatic secretion. They called the substance "secretin" and dubbed it a "hormone" the first known hormone.

Chemical Imbalance at the brain - Schizophrenia ( The Black Swan ), starring Natalie Portman who won the Best Actress Award in the 83rd Academy Awards in the U.S.A.

Red Fm's 20K Facebook Frenzy and a chance to catch Taylor Swift "LIVE" in UK has SNOWBALLED to RM$3,000.00!

I still don't think that tomorrow morning at 8:30am, I'm gonna hear my name being called out, the odds are, I just will have to sit and listen to know the result so that my ease of mind is established. I still know that if I am hooked, people would want me to play and sit LONGER and use my phone more, and that's not gonna get me the few thousands I have been hoping for recently. So be it, just go with the flow! And the flow is beckoning me to proceed!

Three times nobody called back, so the money's been snowballed to 3 times the actual amount! I am happy like Terry, because he doesn't have anything to do with it, while I am sitting here waiting and waiting like a nerd, knowing nothing and nothing ever happens around here, at least with my chinese name not being called out. I think the word 'chosen' (various person's been chosed by a panel of judges) has something to do with it, and being not picked, makes me unhappy, and I always brush it out of my mind with a jolly good walk out to buy some supper and dinner!

Tomorrow, another day, another waiting period, endless and endlessly waiting for just three more days to end this torment of suspense on who's the ultimate warrior like the last One!The Winner! is never important, what is important is that I took part and I gain a whole lot of knowledge and experience dealing with computers! Whooaa laaaa.

In Case of a break-up, MOVE ON! How big is the world?

I'm thinking about this hobby that I loves....I'm thinking of this work that I like, I'm thinking of this 'act' that I always got myself engrossed in ~ surfing the net - my husband doesn't allow it. He couldn't even SHARE his computer with me....is it that gross that he can only 'share' his underparts with you, that is all? Pay you a little bit of his money, ask you to work a million, shred your skin off for his children who doesn't know or give a damn thing about their mother, or is it that it is so cruel just to allocate my own quiet time to spend on the pc? He wouldn't give, I wouldn't take, either....

I'm now back home with Mom, my pc's provided, my bills being paid, I volunteered not to disappoint my mother, for she's the only one I've got left, I couldn't even win a fight, I will always have to loose... Mother knows best. But when it's time to come to surfing the net, my mother doesn't bother me because I allocate time for her and helped her....I stopped in the middle of my tracks just to help out, and she appreciates it.....

I don't want to go back to that house with no TV, no entertainment, no hobby, just plain utterly lousy sex.